whelp

things have been pretty interesting as of late, i had a pretty good weekend. spent time with people that mattered to me, had a few adventures as well as a few realizations. i would like to say a lot of the things were uplifting, cause they ultimately were but at the same time it was all things that i needed to hear. i really need a push to feel like i need to get more of a drive to get this ball on the move. i had no idea none of my friends would actually have expectations and be somewhat thrilled to see what i have in store. i am surprised how easy it was to get joey on board, all i need to do is follow through and see if he won't flake on me. i know he'll bring the energy i'm seeking as well adding the emotion and atmosphere to this record. now this record is about 7 songs long, and it's more of an album than a EP. the mood is still the same, no songs were cut but more were added. this project has grown into something more..complete i would like to say. i was going to go to a show with my friend mike but i ended up running late and hung out with my friend jonathan instead. i was suppose to meet mike at UIC, but he was gone by the time i got there cause i told him to leave if i was going to make him late. so since that didn't work out i gave jon a buzz and walked over to his dorm. we talked for a nice while, it was something i felt we both needed. it was amazing. we talked about his art, what he's been up to as well as him coming to be the person he is now. and i am so proud. he's more comfortable with liking guys, cause we all had a hunch that he did. i let him hear a demo i did and he was somewhat blown away, not even trying to tute my own horn or anything but he truly like the things he heard. he feels that i'm slowly on my way to do good things and he believes my EP will come out good. he's also going to work on the art work for my record, i'm extremely stoked to see what he's going to do. he's so talented and i feel he will bring a new element in the form of art to represent what i'm about to unveil. there's so much frustration in his artwork as well as passion. i just love it. later that night i went over jarret's and had another talk about what i'm trying to do again. he loved the demo and he's pretty excited to see what i have up my sleeve. he went on to tell me how he thinks i have so much to offer and i really need to be active in a band. so basically, a lot of people are now officially sitting and waiting to see what i'm going to do next. it's kind of weird, like i don't feel any pressure cause there isn't. but it's kind of nice to know people aren't only supportive, they're curious and waiting to hear this effort of mine to be complete. i'm juggling titles, but the one that's sticking to me the most is "we're all in good company". for some reason it feels like it suits, but we will see if it works or not. there's no longer a theme for the record but it feels like i'm turning to indie-hip hop for inspiration. i have so many ideas, i know what i want a few songs to be about but i'm not exactly sure how to start writing for it. i think this week i will use a lot of the time i have to start writing short stories. hopefully those ideas, and thoughts can be used to form songs. i know i'm not the most lyrically deepest person, but i have so much i want to discuss you know? i'm praying that i find an awesome vocalist to help me bring it all together. i have no idea what i'm going to do about vocals. like i know i'd like to do some parts, but i want a voice for this project. once i find him, hopefully he'll be able to contribute ideas and not only his personality to this project. hopefully all of this works out and i can do small tours with this studio project-turned-band barely half of the year. we'll see how everything works out. i made a more realistic goal, and hopefully this EP will be done tracking before the new year comes. i want it to either be sent off to be mastered by late decemember if it hasn't already, or i'm waiting to save up money to do so.